Unleashed Emotions

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It feels like I’m starting to move on. I’m happy, not because the love inside me is fading away but for the fact that I could paint a smile once again. I could once again wake up each morning not thinking of that same person all over again.

Honestly, I would really want to forget you, erase you in my life. Countless times, you’ve been telling me to just forget all those promising conversations we had. I tried but then, I can’t do it, I won’t be able to do it. The memories we had keeps on flashing inside my mind and I don’t know how to overcome it. It’s funny how I oftentimes cry whenever I watch movies. This was the effect from loving you so deeply, I easily got carried away.

I wanted to forget everything about you.. For letting me go, for not loving me anymore, for everything. I had my lapses, I admit and I’m sorry. This is me. I just can’t be the girl that you really wanted. I could be better  but I can’t totally change.

You always say that you have accepted me for what and for who I am. But that’s not what I’ve seen in you. Maybe you do, but not the totality of me.

When I was younger, I told myself that I would not dig for love. Love hurts. I have seen those hurts through my family and friends and I don’t want to feel the same way. I made myself discrete to other people so I won’t be hurt.

Yet, when I met you, my perception on love changed. I have thought of giving love a try. And indeed, I found happiness. Happiness that I have not felt before. Happiness that I have found in your arms. Though it was not the usual relationship we had, you still gave me the new meaning of love.

But then here I am, still mending the heart that you have broken. For now, I’m going to return to that discrete self of mine. Perhaps a few crushes would do. But love? I’ll pass. I was happy without it before, and I’d still be happy without it today. I still have friends with me after all.

Things have been really different now. You have your life and I’m going to move on. So let me go. Cut the invisible thread that you’ve put on me. I’ll be fine, don’t worry. I think this would be good for the both of us.

Then again, there are things that would remain the same..

One..
We’d still be the best of friends. You can still count on me..

Two..
You were my first, and i hope you would still be my last..
I’d still love you..
forever..

Thanks for the memories..
I’m glad I’ve shared it with you..

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Quotable Quotes

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Akala ko ikaw na at ako. Kasi yung mga pangarap ko, sayo ko binuo. Usap-usap, plano-plano. Yun pala hanggang dun lang tayo. ngayong wala ka na, pano na ko?

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Pag namatay ba ako, bibisitahin mo pa ko? Maaalala mo pa kaya ako? Pagdadasal mo kaya ako? Eh, mamiss kaya? Hindi siguro. Kasi ngayon pa nga lang na buhay ako di ko na maramdaman na mahal mo ako, eh.

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Wala akong pakielam kahit magmukha akong tanga para sayo. Wala akong pakielam kahit pinagtatawanan na ko ng iba dahil sa pagmamahal sayo. Wala na kong pakielam sa sarili ko. Tutal wala ka rin namang pakielam sa nararamdaman ko.

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 Akala ko kaya ko nang mag-isa, kaya ko nang wala ka, na kahit makita kitang may kasamang iba, ok lang. Pero nung nakasalubong kita habang kasama mo siya, ang nasabi ko lang, Tangina! Iba pa rin pala pag totoo na!

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Minsan, walang nagagawa ang sitwasyon. Kapag talagang mahal mo yung tao, kahit mali, binabalewala mo lang. Kahit nasasaktan, ok lang! Siguro ganun lang talaga dahil ang minsan ay minsan lang dadaan.

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Naaalala mo pa ba nung tayo pa? Ang saya nating dalawa. Yakap mo ko, yakap kita. Sabay sabi pang “mahal kita”. Pero noon pa yun, nung tayo pa. Dahil ngayon, iba na. Ikaw na lang ang masaya.

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Pag kailangan mo ng tulong, sa iba ka sasaklolo. Pag payo ang kailangan mo, sigurado sa iba ang takbo mo. Pag dating sa gimikan, imposibleng ako ang isama mo. Pero pag tinalikuran ka ng mga taong to, isipin mo, ha? Nandito lang ako.

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 I believe that a man is lucky if he wins the first love of a woman. But the truth is, a woman is luckier if she wins the last love of a man.

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Mahal mo kaya talaga ako? Yun ang tanong na lagi kong iniisip. Mahal mo ba ako dahil mahal mo akong talaga o kailangan mo lang akong mahalin dahil mahal kita?

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 It really sucks seeing your eyes filled with tears. I wanna hug you tight from your back and never let go. But I’m scared. Scared that you’ll push me back and say, Naman! Di ikaw ang kailangan ko!

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When things go wrong, when sadness fills your heart, when tears fall from your eyes, always remember two things. May jaSi  ka. Sila wala!

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Just through you being in this world you give me joy that even if love abandons me, there’s something precious to me I feel deep in my heart

 

You’re All I Care

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You know, even though you hurt me, I really still think how you’re doing. If you have already eaten your lunch, if you’re feeling sad or bored or if you’re doing fine without me. Things that I usually do when were still going steady.

Even though how many times you’ve made me cry.. YOU’RE STILL ALL THAT I CARE..

Simply because I don’t want you to be sad, I don’t want you to be bothered by problems and if ever you are, I will stand by your side tapping your shoulder whispering “don’t worry, I’m here, we’ll get by…”

I care for you because all I wanted is simply to make you happy even on the saddest part of your life.

Happy Birthday..